Past Came... To Haunt me... Stupid Memory Lane... ... I will never let it go. At least I won't ever forget when my whole fuckin world and hope in mankind died. FUCK YOU C.L.(sorry for the cursing) I'm just being childish. I should forget this shit and grow up... Be the bigger person (not literally). But I did learn something from that asshole. After being left behind from people who I thought were friends, I learned that in life: I'll ultimately have myself and no one else. I can't always have someone by my side doing everything for/with me. When everything's gone, I only have myself. I learned to be independent and I learned that I have to be a better judge of character. I learned how to deal with things by myself and learned to be lonely. Lonely, lol. I know there are bigger things than stupid shit I go through. My life ain't so bad compared to other people but fuck that! This is my life. I'm going through life revolving around me, which makes me a selfish bitch but whatever, my life, not those in poor third world countries lives. Mine solely. Again, I've probably typed this many times but I'm so damn lucky to have David. It's a noggin scratcher on why of all the people in the world he chose me? He knows what went on in April-May '06. But the timing was never better. When all was lost, he was there. In fact, he was always there (more like online but still...) ever since senior year in highschool. Awww, highschool... i hate it. Of all the people in the world who I know In Real Life the only two people I know to have hearts of gold are David and Gaby. Took me a good damn while to figure that out. There aren't many good or kind people in the world. (Jake has a heart of gold but I can't see him in person or poke him). Ok, i'm done being a big ass whiney brat now. ♠KillJoyJen♠ | 
