Hey,

This is my very first time using Xanga's Weblog thing-a-ma-jig. It's pretty interesting, since every adolescent human being has an online journal why can't I have one? So I can fit in with everyone and hopefully not feel so damn lonely. Thanks to goDoggygo who is a subscribed member of Xanga.com I am now a member too. Go see The Full Thomas. I know you'll love it. Hopefully I'll get to know more people here. It's an invitation from me to you. An invitation to type to me and criticize me, won't that be fun?

   Gosh, I'm pissed this evening. Yesterday Cindy Baby and I talked about going to the library on Saturday. Today is Saturday and Cindy Baby and I haven't gone yet. Well, at around 12 noon Cindy Baby called me saying if I'm busy and of course, being the lazy freeloader bitch that I am "I'm not busy". Well, I don't want to be busy. Cindy says she'll get out of the house when her folks come home from an afternoon filled day at China Town buying underwear. Cindy (C.B. i shall refer to) will call back when her folks come home.

So I called back after drinking some wine and eating cheese (I swear to the God and Goddess that I eat cheese, no lie. Even though I'm only 17. Isn't this secret scandalous?) Oh yeah, I drink too. But not a lot to get a buzz, just enough to feel grown up, lmao. C.B.'s aunt or mom picked up the phone then I asked for C.B. Thank the creator that C.B. was able to talk to me. C.B. said, "Hi, I'm kind of busy right now with the laundry." I answerd, "Oh, ok. If you're done with the clothes call me back ok?" "Ok." I waited for so long! It's been 4 hours. In 4 hours I've watched Mtv and all that teen music crap that is the base of our lives. Still no call from Cindy. I wonder what's wrong in her house.

   If you don't know, C.B.'s brothers are quite the hard asses they appear to be. Well, maybe her 3 or 2nd brother (C.B. has a household full of men. Doesn't that suck? Her mom is a fellow female but is hardly around. Oh yeah, she has a cousin too somewhere in the pile of people.) For the moment I'd say C.B. is partially grounded. Damn it all. C.B. is such a sweet heart , she works so much with not enough gratification. Pisses me off how she has to be depended upon to feed her 30 something year old brothers just because she is a woman! Stupid old gender roles. The men can fend for themselves, after all, their machismo makes them strong and fit to survive. They can pratically hunt still, hunting through garbage cans. Yeah, men are the ultimate survivors. While we women have to live on a double standard and still look pretty doing it.

  No call from C.B.= no happiness. Man, I love my friends.